Self-condemnation

guiltWhat’s concealed inside of me is a secret untold

Embellished by my demons, ashamed of its own skin

Wish I could scream it out, wishing I was that bold.

Staring at the ceiling all night, I wonder how guilt could be this strong

This self-conflicted dispute happening within

How can I end this absurdity, this is not where I belong

Each day I take a step, each day I get a little brave

And some day I will turn on the lights for them to look in

Someday I won’t be afraid of this unintended sin

Until then, I guess, I will have to live with these regretful waves

Until then I let my faults control me, until then I am enslaved

Prisoner in a body

He was just another man

With plans, ambition and eagerness

With hopeful dreams, some nervousness

Some joyous times and some thrilling bits

His honesty and furtherance

Had someone he loved, some damage done

The crazed obsession, his passion

Some regrets he had like all of us

Sleepless nights, undue loneliness

Inescapable errors, those waterfalls

Unstated words felt like wrecking balls

Wanted to reshape his existence

Wanted liberation but there were wretched hindrance

Wanted latitude, he wanted to fly

But his mind was imprisoned, he was paralyzed

Absurd quandary

absurd
You broke the locks that kept me chained

All this time, these doors were keeping me sane

Now I witness before
me, all the colors have changed

Every piece, every puzzle is deranged

Every instinct, sensation is out of place

Every eye that’s on me, filled with disgrace

I wonder if it’s easier to just mend the locks

Or is it time to elude these blocks?