Self-condemnation

guiltWhat’s concealed inside of me is a secret untold

Embellished by my demons, ashamed of its own skin

Wish I could scream it out, wishing I was that bold.

Staring at the ceiling all night, I wonder how guilt could be this strong

This self-conflicted dispute happening within

How can I end this absurdity, this is not where I belong

Each day I take a step, each day I get a little brave

And some day I will turn on the lights for them to look in

Someday I won’t be afraid of this unintended sin

Until then, I guess, I will have to live with these regretful waves

Until then I let my faults control me, until then I am enslaved

Absurd quandary

absurd
You broke the locks that kept me chained

All this time, these doors were keeping me sane

Now I witness before
me, all the colors have changed

Every piece, every puzzle is deranged

Every instinct, sensation is out of place

Every eye that’s on me, filled with disgrace

I wonder if it’s easier to just mend the locks

Or is it time to elude these blocks?