The words that falls so brilliantly on a paper,
cuts my insides like a blade
Eager to see light again
Desperate to be heard
Wanting to help complete the puzzle
Craving to turn the narrative around
The words that runs like blood
Desire contentment
Once for all
But what they dont understand
Is the irony of it all.
The bleeding would have to cease
Once euphoria takes control.
The same old pavement
The same old place
The same old gentle wind
Breezing with same grace
Everything around me is familiar
Just like it used to be before
Yet my own persona feels unfamiliar
My mind seems to be at war
The stars are shinning all around me
But to me they look like flashing lights
Making me too blind to choose a road
Nothing anymore is black or white
These shades of colors are so deceitful
Which one to pick? which one to leave?
To me, each path looks identical
Has time made me this naive?
what’s between us is a light that’s captivating us
denying us the luxury to embrace the dusk
filling up our souls and vacating them -simultaneously
making a deceptive promise of infinity
.
what’s between us is a sound of enchantment
contradicting the oath of radiance
producing melodies of surety and ‘what ifs’
fabricating an illusionary hope for end
.
But imagine, what between us was nothing but stardust
scattering away with every blow of wind
causing colorless desire and fondness.
…making no pledges to be shattered away
sustaining no longing to destroy this mark.
Stealing me away like I was only yours to keep
Had a faith on that broken clock, but time took a leap
Realized hours are mortal and we had so much to achieve
Fell under the orthodox of morality, same as everyone perceived
.
You made yourself believe that love was just a myth
I denied myself of all common sense, figured you were never mine to begin with
.
Now I lay here, after all this time, with all that I have gained
Wondering how satisfaction must feel; all I persist is unfading pain
Got a house filled with artifacts but nothing that I need
Have a soul filled with banality that forever bleeds
.
Left with nothing but the reminiscence of time when you were mine
Left with nothing but some regrets and those irreplaceable echoes grimed
Left with nothing but those moments, back when everything was in line
But all I really gained are your memories and that photograph we took one summertime
She looked the same to everyone
Masked under all that counterfeit
The way she mirrored all their moves
How proficiently she tried to fit
.
Her conduct was enough to bluff all but one
He could see right through her oblivion
Struggled endlessly to crack those walls
Devoted all he had in this overhaul
.
But his endeavors were clear to all but one
“No one ever could value my true perception”
Believing this, she let her insecurities be in control
And he drained out his entity drilling in a hole
The vase is filled with emptiness
Its enchanting allure concealed with dust
This damaged urn; useless
That once stood out the brightest
Chipped off insides, no exterior mark
A certain disfigured, apparent spark
That’s how things perish, that’s how it embarks
Pay attention to what’s vitiated, pay attention to its arc
Musky corner; its endless bide
Repair it with love, don’t throw it aside
Your presumption; unjustified
Have flowers ever grown when fertilized with cyanide?
What’s concealed inside of me is a secret untold
Embellished by my demons, ashamed of its own skin
Wish I could scream it out, wishing I was that bold.
Staring at the ceiling all night, I wonder how guilt could be this strong
This self-conflicted dispute happening within
How can I end this absurdity, this is not where I belong
Each day I take a step, each day I get a little brave
And some day I will turn on the lights for them to look in
Someday I won’t be afraid of this unintended sin
Until then, I guess, I will have to live with these regretful waves
Until then I let my faults control me, until then I am enslaved
He was just another man
With plans, ambition and eagerness
With hopeful dreams, some nervousness
Some joyous times and some thrilling bits
His honesty and furtherance
Had someone he loved, some damage done
The crazed obsession, his passion
Some regrets he had like all of us
Sleepless nights, undue loneliness
Inescapable errors, those waterfalls
Unstated words felt like wrecking balls
Wanted to reshape his existence
Wanted liberation but there were wretched hindrance
Wanted latitude, he wanted to fly
But his mind was imprisoned, he was paralyzed
You broke the locks that kept me chained
All this time, these doors were keeping me sane
Now I witness before
me, all the colors have changed
Every piece, every puzzle is deranged
Every instinct, sensation is out of place
Every eye that’s on me, filled with disgrace
I wonder if it’s easier to just mend the locks
Or is it time to elude these blocks?
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